Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
I knew barely anything about my new friend except for the fact that as of 10 days ago we now share a common thread. She was, at 27 years old, diagnosed with the same "fatal disease" that I have. It came from out of NO where, shocked her, her family, and her husband and has, of course, now taken over her life.
I prayed on my way to see her, I had my girlfriends praying for me, and I was EXCITED to get to talk to her. We were immediate friends and we shared for over 2 hours about what she's going through, what I went through and continue to go through and I found myself the "resident expert". It is IMPOSSIBLE to be a "perfect diabetic" but I hope through my stories, my experiences and sharing life with her that she sees although it is now a PART of her life it doesn't have to BE her life.
I started thinking about why I wasn't nervous, or anxious or sick to my stomach :) and I think I came to the conclusion that it was because I feel like I'm an "expert" in this area of my life. NOT a "model" diabetic by any means. (Lord knows, especially since I was showing her how my meter "beams" my blood sugars directly to my pump and my BS was 190! :) )
BUT that I have lived it. I have done the stages, I have made the adjustments and I am happy (and my parents are relieved I'm sure :)) to say that even though it was a little sketchy there for a few years in the begining and then again in my 20's....I think I've ended up ok with it. I have not been BACK to the hospital for an overnight stay since my diagnosis.
My disease is NOT something I want to be reminded about every time I turn around but it is something I have learned to live with. I don't WANT to be defined as a "good diabetic" because my sugars are perfect ALL the time or a "bad diabetic" because I have a bad day!
FYI ~ It doesn't "HELP" when people say "are you supposed to be eating that?" or are your "sugars ok for that cookie?" I don't know. You are 45+ lbs over-weight and I don't ask YOU if you should "have that piece of cake" :)
Harsh? Maybe. But after 17 years I think I get to make those comments. For the people around me who are just learning to adjust to a whole new way of life... and so maybe they don't have to go through all the other "emotional" stuff in a "normal person's" effort to help. My new friend K.T. will be JUST fine and I'm just here for a moment to, I hope, guide her into the next chapter and show her it REALLY isn't SO bad.
I am the RESIDENT EXPERT in my own disease and that's enough for me.
Are you an expert in something that you could offer wisdom, guidance, an ear to someone who is newly starting out on a path you have already traveled? Can you help someone else work through their season?
Thursday, March 26, 2009
So fun and so cute! It was worth sucking down the mac 'n cheese and hot dogs as we flew out the door :)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Sunday we had special visitors at church that then came over for a quick lunch and visit before they had to head north. My cousin R, his wife D and their son M were in the area for the weekend. It was great to be with family!!! If you think of it... lift them up in your prayers over the next few months... they have some struggles of their own going on....
Friday, March 20, 2009
*picture from ama z 0n
Quick Review for Tracy :) I LOVED it... I loved what an easy read it was, I loved how addicting it was, I love how the books kept building on each other and I LOVED the "happy" ending. This was not a book series that I would have EVER just decided to read on my own but when all the hype came out on the internet this summer, when it was all anyone (ok, pre-teen girls let's be honest) were talking about and when my neice showed up with it at MIL's one day I HAD to see what the rage was about!! :) I'm glad I did.
Vampires, werewolves, teenie boppers, not really my gig...normally :) But I think because this was such an easy read it was so quick to suck me in (pun totally intended). The first book was just a good story. I took Briana to see the movie and I was thrilled that there was no smut, no $ex, no parts during the movie where I was uncomfortable.
As the series went on I have to say I was disappointed with the introduction of $ex when this series really is catering to the pre-teen age group but it was done in the covenant of marriage so perhaps that makes it a little more allowable...though again, not sure if getting married at 18 should be glorified. Thankfully that was not a HUGE part but enough so that it was noticed and would make me think twice about taking Bri Bri to the 3rd and 4th movie, whenever they come out.
All in all... TOTALLY a pleasure read for me and I really enjoyed it. If you want fast, easy and mindless... get sucked in. :)
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Last night GA came over for dinner and a movie... (The Expre$$ :) A little long but I think we all gave it 2 thumbs up? :) When I got home she and Husband met me at the door asking if I had "noticed" anything... does that NOT make anyone else NERVOUS? :) I had in fact noticed that there was some kind of a "track" going down my driveway and casually mentioned it to Laura Jane while we chatted on the way home but didn't think another thing of it.... until Husband said.... "COWS....we had COWS that came RIGHT UP to our basement door and you did NOT notice the tracks in the SAND!?!?!" I guess I really AM distracted when I chat and drive...*blush* So OUT GA and I went to take pictures of the bovine hooves so that you can all be a part of "living in the country"
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Are you in college... planning for the future, making the most of the opportunity and time that you have there where it really is OK to be broke and a moocher?
Are you fresh out of college, trying to figure out where to go, what to do, if you should marry him or move on? Wondering why you don't have a him/her to marry? Which job you should take?
Is it the 20's? Are you married? Engaged? Wishing you were one or the other? Are you planning on starting a family? Are you taking care of loved ones and aged beyond your young years? Are you in the middle of the family praying for the time to pass so that you can sleep again, yet all the while you are... wiping bums... cuddling children....managing your home, your husband/wife, your finances and wondering how it is all going to work out but trusting that it will?
Is it 30? Do you feel the time crunch now? The pressure of being single, the pressure of having kids, the pressure of a career, the pressure of a mortgage....the pressure of your grandparents health and watching your parents deal with it?
How about 40...where I can only assume that the hour glass moves even faster than it is for me right now... where you want to hold onto everything and anyone and not let them grow, change and move from where they are?
50,60,70 and beyond... are you burying loved ones, best friends, caring for the ill, worried about your own health and future? Are you enjoying every minute, looking back with no regrets and absolutely certain about where you will go when you die?
I'm just wondering outloud... what "season" are YOU in?